I am cerberus lulled

As she sends soft notes

To caress all of who i am

Sending me into stupor

Dreaming of cloud-flecked skies

As she tiptoes past my defenses

And I know I am lost

But in these moments

I just don’t care

There is piano

Notes Drifting around me

Like warm air in the topics

Caressing my skin

There are tomatoes

Garlic, onions and spices

Roasting on the stove

Soon to become sauce

And we will eat together

There are fingers

Scratching along my back

On a lazy Sunday morning

These things are truths

Embedding into consciousness

They are beauty

Worn on flesh

Like tattoos

Given by one-another

Personal runes

Readable only by us

You’ll find me here

I inhabit the walls

And the surrounding air

I am in the stones

And the great black earth

My voice will echo

From the deep, cold well

While my footsteps

Are pressed into the wood

That runs along the floors

You’ll find me in memory

In the cherished times

And even in the regrets

And memories never made

You’ll find me in my words

Now scattered to the aether

I am where you look for me

I am where you’ll find me.

The night is the worst

When I’m left with

The isolation of my mind

With the world sleeping

I can hear its screams

Echoing off the walls

As i lie awake

Awaiting the day

And the dawn of hope

That rises with the sun

Finally picked up a new controller (Elite Core 2) and started playing The Blood of Dawnwalker vampire rpg…so far pretty awesome. Playing on Ultra settings at 1440.

Joy blossoms in the strangest places. I am grateful for the opportunity to feel joy in the midst of darkness. I am grateful to be able to share joy with someone who brings so much of it.

I reflect a lot these days about what and who i have since the untimely death of my little sister April. My good fortune is immeasurable.

To have the amazing family i have. To watch my children thriving and to have someone who i can be vulnerable with and who, in turn, it’s vulnerable with me… this is treasure held in your hand.

There is light in this home. There is laughter and love. What more can one ask for?

to my beautiful corvus
you four shining stars
that lighten my southern sky
as you rise in the spring
the brightest jewels
to ever cross my eye
i only have words to leave –

to kraz i say
do not be afraid
fear is the mind-killer
you know this

to algorab i say
remember this truth
you are loved
and you always will be

to minkar i say
you can do anything
failure is simply opportunity
to learn new ways

and to my precious gienah
who brought life
where once i was dead
you are complete
in who you are
and in all you do
a wonder to behold
now and forever

i love you all
may flights of ravens
sing you to sleep

it is true
that one can lose sight of the stars
if you were to fall into a black hole
forgetting that they are with you
the whole way to oblivion
never leaving you alone