These words are safe
And so they are
Meaningless
Empty, vacuous puffs
That fly lightly away
Like a cat’s breath in winter
Drifting to the iron skies
Unnoticed and invisible
Simply signifying life
These words are safe
And so they are
Meaningless
Empty, vacuous puffs
That fly lightly away
Like a cat’s breath in winter
Drifting to the iron skies
Unnoticed and invisible
Simply signifying life
I feel it
The tide is rolling in
The dry and empty sands
Are vanishing beneath
And I
I will ride the waters out to sea
Watching the stars turn overhead
Witnesses to one like them
Who drifts in a constellation
A myriad of bright humanity
We are fireflies against the dark
Signaling existence to one another
There is no sacred thing
There is no holy thing
There is only
This maddening impossibility
This display of improbability
That is life and love and matter
And so
Perhaps
These things are sacred
These things are holy
Somehow
There is a deer skull
White bone emerging
From the melting
Whiter snow
And it could be
That it never had flesh at all
If not for the bit of fur
Still attached
As if to say life persists
Past the inevitability
Of death
This relic of a wild thing
That walked
That grazed
That breathed
Mocks with evidence
Of a certain future
To which we are chained
This sculpture of existence
That lays frozen
To the still and quiet
To the icy arms of the earth
That strives to consume it
That it might become new again
Testimony to an endless cycle
Of which we are a part
i have to remind myself today
i am the one who leaps from cliffs
to the unknown waters below
and i am the one who climbs
to the highest points unharnessed;
i have delved the deep dark
below the busy city streets
and stood between fists
remember that you are fearless
even if sometimes foolish
and that you will fight for good
and for the ones you love
until the last breath leaves you
don’t forget who you are
in the winds of the wild world;
always be ready to jump.
I’m sitting in the sun
And this spot
Is uniquely hot
It’s April
But it feels like August
My clothes
They smell like ironed laundry
And my thoughts wander
Over familiar territory
Fixed on isolation
Like a polar bear
Trapped on a melting ice flow
Far out to sea
Waiting to be
Submersed
I have been playing video games since I was about 12 years old. Since then I have amassed a large number of gaming experiences and some have definitely been better than others. Here are what I would consider my Top 10 favorite video games based on enjoyment and replayability.
10. Fallout 4 (2015): This game made Bethesda Softworks my favorite gaming studio of all time. I would say there is no better post-apocalyptic openworld RPG than Fallout 4. The design and music are wondrous. The story is compelling but takes a backseat to the vastness of this futureistic yet retro game world. The attention to detail, the combat mechanics, and more pull the whole experience together.

9. Doom (1993): One of the first 3D shooters (Wolfestein was earlier) that allowed you to play against other people via modem connection Doom was the source of many late night scream fests as I battled against my friend Mike. It had a great, pounding soundtrack that matched the violence and gore perfectly.

8. Fable (2004): The first of many games that Peter Molyneaux and Lion’s Head Studios would overpromise on Fable was still one of the most magical and creative role playing games where your decisions actively changed your character’s appearance and people’s reaction to you.

7. Resident Evil VII: Biohazard (2017): Few games have more thoroughly scared the shit of me than REVII. The setting and ambiance, the creatures and the storyline all contribute to a hell of a creepy, messed up gaming experience that was unforgettable.

6. Bioshock (2007): What can I say about this game? There was nothing like it when it game out and it remains unique in the pantheon of gaming experiences. This game established the importance of a good soundtrack and the story was fantastically compelling. Every moment of the game when you were not battling incredibly well-designed creatures like Big Daddy or Little Sister you would simply stand in awe of the underwater views and sets.

5. Halo: Combat Evolved (2001): People were skeptical when Microsoft entered the console space with Xbox but minds changed quickly when they first experienced Halo. I think this game was single-handedly responsible for that first console launch. The storyline, the music, the main character of Master Chief and the amazing multiplayer abilities made this game one of best games to ever be created.

4. Fatal Frame II: Crimson Butterfly (2003): Another amazing entry in the horror genre out of Japan you play as a young Japanese schoolgirl hunting for her twin sister in a haunted village armed only with the Camera Obscura…a camera that captures the malaevolent spirits you encounter along the way. Some of the jump scares in this game still have not been beaten in my experience. The stylized animation and unwillingness to censor themselves led to an unreal, best in class horror game. This is one of the only games I wish would be remade.

3. The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim (2011): This franchise is probably one of the best RPGs I have ever played. Let me rephrase that – as a franchise no other RPG has come close. They rank slightly lower on the list as individual games for me but only slightly. The vastness and beauty of Skyrim led to many hours of simple, non-combat wandering to view things like sunsets. I definitely appreciated the real life combat mechanics of damage being taken when weapon hits enemy rather than the old school D&D dice role sort of thing that many RPGs started with.

2. Elden Ring (2022): By now you know my favorite video game genre is open-world RPG. Until Elden Ring I had barely played a Dark Souls game. Clearly I must be a glutton for punishment because few games have elicited my vile curses from my mouth than Elden Ring. The game is soooooo fucking hard. The bosses are ridiculous. Many times I would hit a wall and simply put down the controller and not touch the game for months. But it always lured me back. The beauty of this world is staggering. I loved the cliffside vistas overlooking the endless sea and simply standing there. The secrets and hidden places, weaponry, armour, levelling system and more make this one of the greatest video games every created. It has enormous replay value and this is also a factor.

1. The Witcher III: Wild Hunt (2015): Until I played this game I had no idea of the potential for RPG gaming. I have hundreds of hours poured into this 10 year old game (as of the time I am writing this) and I still return to it. The quality of the world created here by Projekt CD Red, the compelling story of Geralt, the many different potential endings all with heart wrending decisions to be made, the vastness of the world and the simple beauty and vibrant colours of the lands of the continent propel this game easily into first place for me. Riding Roach through the countryside or wandering the city streets (and sewers) of Novigrad provide endless enjoyment. This is also another game where you find yourself pausing on a mountainside as the sunset’s light slants across the hills and valleys in front of you. A master work of gaming development it is hard to imagine another game taking its place at number one but who knows, perhaps Witcher IV with Ciri as the lead will do so – I can hardly wait.

Honourable Mentions: These are the games that almost made the list but couldn’t quite break in: The Elder Scrolls III: Morrowind (2002); The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion (2006); Cyberpunk 2077 (2020); Quake (1996); Wolfenstein 3D (1992); SimCity 2000 (1993); Shenmue (1999); Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare (2007); Oddworld: Munch’s Oddysee (2001); Hogwart’s Legacy (2022); Dead or Alive 3 (2001) SIDENOTE: This is the game where the higher you set your age the bouncier the boobs got…you could set your age to 99; Hellblade: Senua’s Sacrifice (2017).
It’s her birthday today
This once so small one
Now so grown up one
She has responsibilities now
But i know the truth
That she would still camp
In her small tent on the balcony
That she would run through water
On the local splash pad
She is still herself
And holds that part close
She is always Itsy in my heart
Scroll scroll scroll
Scroll away time
Make it all pass
Until it ends
And eyes shut
it is the ever-present
the never-ending
gaze
that wears one down
day in and day out
those eyes that bore
like sad drill bits
seeking to penetrate the core
it is a form of violence
to tear open another
and enter like a virus
like a pathetic plague
hoping to infect body
hoping to ingest soul
how exhausting it must be
to stand in the omni-present heat
of a merciless stare
like an ice sculpture
set in the desert sun
trying to stop itself from melting
and raining drops like tears
to the thirsty sand below
until nothing remains
as if it never was
and the eyes move on…