Messenger

 
a dove did light upon
my burnished balustrade
ivory white like fallen moon
sent from Zion
"I am Zephyr"
"I am Sophia"
"I am the breath of God"
she whispered sung songs
take hope for the imago dei
beats forth upon the world
listen as sacred heart drums orders
marshall yourself
live now as you will then
speak with Heaven’s tongue
for darkness rides the coming clouds
and all that will be bright is you
life-polished mirrror to shine the way
to the terrible wonderful day of the Lord
 
a dove did light upon
my burnished balustrade
and held me wrapt
bound in blue eternal eye
then gone as come – away, away
with echo of last shout
upon my once deaf ears
stand ready vanguard
life is coming like lightning in the dark
and I
I wept at the thought of it all
as the boiling black approached
undone
undone
we are all undone

Saint Paul

 
This is a short post with some observations about a book I have recently started reading by Joseph Ratzinger (more widely known as Pope Benedict XVI). I write these observations down partly as a way of encouraging people to become familiar with the theology of this enigmatic man and scholar. Quite frankly I believe he has some remarkable and valuable things to say and people of all stripes should read him and listen to him carefully.
 
I recognize that there are some who, having reached the word pope and realized I am writing about a Catholic theologian, will simply turn away and ignore the insights simply because he is Catholic. This is, of course, narrow-minded and ignorant in the same sense as when Catholics ignore good Protestant theology. After all there is really no such thing as good Catholic theology, good Protestant theology or good Orthodox theology – in the end there is only good theology and I believe Ratzinger provides good theology.
 
What I like about Ratzinger’s book Saint Paul is that it is a collection of catecheses (public teachings) written and delivered throughout the liturgical year of 2008-2009 dedicated to Saint Paul in the Catholic church (celebrating 2,000 years since his birth in about 8 AD). Why is this significant? Well whenever you take theology and bring it before the communion of saints as public teaching it becomes the pinnacle of all theology (as far as I am concerned) pastoral theology. That is to say the theological, and pastoral roles meet (as they should always but rarely do) and create something wonderful.
 
As to the observations from the book:
 
"A primary and fundamental fact to bear in mind is the relationship between the milieu in which Paul was born and raised  and the global context to which he later belonged."
 
Ratzinger first and foremost believes that in order to understand Paul and therefore the word of God through Paul we must understand him within the historical context of his time and place. This is solid thelogical thinking. Ratzinger goes on to use the relationship between stoicism and early Christianity as an example of why historical context must be understood. Ratzinger writes "it is clear that it is impossible to understand Saint Paul properly without placing him against both the Judaic and pagan background of his time."
 
Ratzinger quotes Acts 17:24, 28 "God does not live in shrines made by man…for in him we live, move and have our being." He points out that this statement would be completely agreed upon by the stoics of Paul’s day not to suggest that Paul was a stoic but that Paul, being a man of Israel, Greece and Rome, was eminantly qualified to translate the gospel to all nations just as God has selected him to do.
 
In terms of belief in the early church Ratzinger writes "the only thing necessary was to belong to Christ, to live with Christ and to abide by his words. Thus, in belonging to Christ, they also belonged to Abraham and to God and were sharers in all the promises."
 
Further along Ratzinger speaks of Paul’s message on Mars Hill, the Areopagus – "the discourse of the Areopagus, mentioned in the Acts of the Apostles, is the model of how to translate the Gospel into Greek culture, of how to make Greeks understand that this God of the Christians and Jews was not a God foreign to their culture but the unknown God they were awaiting, the true answer to the deepest questions of their culture." In this quote Ratzinger sums up the process of mission for the church. 
 
Ratzinger points out that Paul, in his own words, has "anxiety for the churches" (2 Cor 11:28). This brief focus of Ratzinger’s on Paul’s anxiousness for the church caused me to wonder why Paul was anxious at all? After all in our post-modern age it is generally unacceptable to be anxious for the church because it seems to betray a lack of faith tht God will do as God will do. Doesn’t Jesus himself say do not worry? Of course Paul’s anxiety is different from the worry Jesus forbids. His anxiety is rooted in the reality that the community of believers have significant God-given roles to play and there is a very real possibility that they will shirk those responsibilities. We are not fond of thinking in our day that we have roles and responsibilities as part of the community of believers. We would rather see the community as a more romanticized perfected communist sect where we all float by on God’s grace (this concept of grace is cheap grace according to Dietrich Bonhoeffer, grace without responsibility). Ratzinger’s focus on Paul’s anxiety contradicts the romanticized perspective of the Christian community.
 
Another thought from Ratzinger are his observations on the conversion of Saint Paul on the road to Damascus. Ratzinger writes "The average reader may be tempted to linger too long on certain details, such as the light in the sky, falling to the ground, the voice that called him, his new condition of blindness, his healing like scales falling from his eyes and the fast that he made. But all these details refer to the heart of the event: the Risen Christ appears as a brilliant light and speaks to Saul, transforms his thinking and his entire life. The dazzling radiance of the Risen Christ blinds him; thus what was his inner reality is also outwardly apparent, his blindness to the truth, to the light that is Christ. And then his definitive "yes" to Christ in baptism restores his sight and makes him really see. In the ancient Church Baptism was clled illumination because this sacrament gives light; it truly makes one see."
 
In a short and concise paragraph Ratzinger packs in loads of theology, particularly about the nature of the miraculous in scripture and how to read it. As he points out too many people focus in on the miraculous and interpret them as significant unto themselves. Far from denying the miraculous Ratzinger points out that miracles point to a deeper hidden reality either within the person to whom the miracle is being applied or to the one performing the miracle (often both). Ratzinger’s pastoral heart makes him far more gentle than I would be. When he says "certain readers may be tempted to linger too long…" I would say it is these same people that zero in on specific miraclous occurrences and prophetic pronouncements such as tongues, prophecy, various end times predictions etc, and read them solely in reference to themselves (almost worshiping the miraculous). The problem with such overt focus is that the believer misses the whole point of the miraculous event or prediction – which is to point them to the deeper reality that Christ is risen, the kingdom has come and will come, and we are to be motivated workers in that kingdom.
 
A point that I cheered heartily for when Ratzinger made it was the importance of the community of believers. He points out that Paul was eminantly qualified to go about his mission alone. After all he was "a Jew of Jews" in his own words, a witness to the risen Christ who personally chose him to go into the world and deliver the gospel. Paul could easily have defended his qualifications as a lone ranger within Christianity since none other than him had such a resume. Ratzinger points out however that "Paul learned that despite the immediacy of his relationship with the Risen One, he had to enter into communion with the Church, he himself had to be baptized, he had to live in harmony with the other Apostles."
 
Once again Ratzinger is reinforcing what many in our current post-modern culture chafe at – the absolute need for the individual follower of Christ to be in unity with and fellowship with a community of believers. If at times we feel that we have grown to a state of maturity that no longer requires us to regularly take part in and contribute to a community of faith how much moreso could Paul have felt? Yet he chose connection with the community because in the end it is part of our salvation. There is no room for lone rangers within the community of faith for just as God is triune community within Himself so must we reflect that same community here on earth (thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven as the prayer goes).
 
A final note from Ratzinger (for now) that I think I will let speak for itself:
 
"We are only Christians if we encounter Christ. O course he does not show himself to us in this overwhelming, luminous way as he did to Paul to make him the Apostle to all peoples. But we too can encounter Christ in reading Sacred Scripure, in prayer, in the liturgical ife of the Church. We can touch Christ’s heart and feel him touching ours. Only in this personal relationship with Christ, only in this encounter with the Risen one do we truly become Christians. And in this way our reason opens, all Christ’s wisdom opens, as do all the riches of truth."
 

Petrified Wood

 
I found a piece of gray and black
half buried half forgotten in the earth
embraced by older arms for sure
lost amidst breeze and mocking green
new stone
old bone
once still fresh like summer pine
once still lush and sun-stretched tall
now rock-dead through and through
laid low beneath descendants’ feet
a memory of a memory of life once lived
empty epitaph
engraved by fingers of wind and water
like lead and death in my hands ’til
it pressed an offered elegy to my mind
 
"now what with glistening eye you see
so one day as marble dry shall you be"

Seeds

 
seeds like snow seek refuge from the wind
sailing bursts of white like light reveal the invisible
racing on the breath of heaven as tiny travellers
while I am moved by the urgency of it all
creation seeking creation
life seeking life
all that was and is will be again
oh to throw oneself to the great exhale
oh to let pneuma take you where it will
fall to earth and die
so that something monstrous
so that something marvellous
may be born by the shedding of your skin

Healing & Isolation

 
A friend of mine (WVG) posted this quote to her facebook status this morning and it is so good I decided to steal it, use it for my morning devotional and expound a bit on over here.
 
"Healing begins with taking our pain out of its diabolic isolation and seeing that whatever we suffer, we suffer it in communion with all of humanity, and yes, all of creation. In doing so, we become participants in the great battle against the powers of darkness. Our little lives participate in something larger". ~ Henri Nouwen
 
So very very insightful. How incredibly powerful. I have been thinking alot about the place for healing lately. Is it within the context of community or is it within the context of isolation? How does one go about treating brokeness anyhow? Nouwen’s quote suggests that darkness must be brought into light and it must be kept there. That is important. We will often expose darkness to light only about as long as it takes darkness to get a decent tan and then thrust it back in the dark because quite frankly i bothers us (as it rightly should). In order to treat darkness (within ourselves and others) it needs the constant exposure to light where it might wither and die. It is the nature of darkness to seek out isolation and shadow because it is there that it can grow unhampered and without restraint. It will do everything it can to remain in the dark (this is why Nouwen calls it "diabolical" because it has a will that works against God). Darkness is like cancer – it requires radiation therapy only this radiation comes from the light of the Son. There is only one community of light on the great old earth – the community that makes up the body of Christ.
 
Matthew 18:20 says: "For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them."
 
When we seek the healing presence of Christ seek out the community of believers
When we seek the compassion of the Son of God seek out the community of believers
When we seek forgiveness of the Son of Man seek out the community of believers
When we seek the holiness of Messiah seek out the community of believers
When we seek sanctification of the Word made flesh seek out the community of believers
 
This is a heavy task for it calls the community to be an open body with arms outstretched welcoming the cancerous and the blind. It speaks directly against the kind of community that shuts its doors to darkness because it has forgotten what its purpose is and that it exists SOLELY for the sake of the other (God and the world) and not for itself.
 
I love Matthew 18:20 more when it is read within the context of the previous verses (Matthew 18:15-19) that set it up which read:
 
"If a brother or sister sins, go and point out the fault, just between the two of you. If they listen to you, you have won them over. But if they will not listen, take one or two others along, so that ‘every matter may be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses.’ If they still refuse to listen, tell it to the church; and if they refuse to listen even to the church, treat them as you would a pagan or a tax collector. "Truly I tell you, whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven. "Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven."
 
These verses speak directly to how Christ calls us to respond to darkness when it erupts within the midst of the community. Most powerful to me is his admonition when a brother or sister refuses to repent – Christ calls the community to "treat them as you would a pagan and a tax collector". It is brilliant because he is speking to a community of people who would naturally cast such folks out of the community and yet this community wants to model themselves after this speaking Christ. That is why they are listening to him in the first place. So then the question is (and must be) asked – how does this Christ treat pagans and tax collectors? When the community discovers the answer to that question they are to do likewise with the obstinate brokeness in their own midst. This is the role of the community of believers…to be Christ. To be light to darkness.
 
I think I will close with a prayer inspired by Matthew 18:18:
 
Father take my broken soul rags though it be
and bind up the darkness within it
Father take my broken soul washed in light
and loose it to the world outside
that in my brokeness I might become your healing
that in my darkness I might become your light
 
Amen and Amen.

A Necessary Read

 
N.T. Wright is a bit of a book factory but nothing he writes can be taken lightly. After You Believe: Why Christian Character Matters is book three in a trilogy but frankly each book in the series stands alone quite well (the others books include Simply Christian and Surprised By Hope).

It is hard for anyone to deny these days that the church and frankly the world (especially the west) is suffering from a crisis of character. It is into this circumstance that Wright presents his very timely book which is focused on defining what character is and how it is achieved. There is much to value in this text from a secular (non-churched) perspective but it is rooted firmly in a solid interpretation of the Bible.

If you are looking for a book along the lines of "the 10 steps to becoming a virtuous person" then you will be disappointed because Wright spends a significant amount of space disavowing the idea that one simply needs to "follow a set of rules" to be a virtuous person (when he speaks of character he means virtue and uses the terms interchangeably). The reverse of this is also true – anyone looking for something to justify a life lived according to intuition or gut-feeling will also be disappointed.

Ultimately Wright presents a Biblical roadmap for discipleship and sanctification. He stresses the importance of recognizing that character/virtue is developed as a discipline. It takes work but that work should be motivated by a life lived in anticipation of the coming together of Heaven and Earth and our roles as Kings and Priests (see Surprised By Hope for a deeper exposition on this theme).

There is much to be admired in this book and Wrigt provides many relevant examples to guide the reader to understanding what virtue is and how it is developed. I highly recommend the text for anyone who wants to learn what it means to be truly human and toward what goal we are designed for.

The book is an excellent pastoral resource and can be used as a foundation or significant part of a discipleship program. Wright produced the book with the secular world in mind as well…educators, employers and others who have a role in character development would do well to read this book and would certainly benefit.

Wake Up

 
I was listening to Arcade Fire’s song Wake Up on the way to Winnipeg today and for a change listened closely to the lyrics. I REALLY like the lyrics and find they are overwhelming and powerful. The lyrics are as follows:
 
Something filled up
My heart with nothing
Someone told me not to cry

But now that I’m older
My heart’s colder
And I can see that it’s a lie

Children, wake up
Hold your mistake up
Before they turn the summer into dust

If the children don’t grow up
Our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up
We’re just a million little gods causing rainstorms
Turning every good thing to rust

I guess we’ll just have to adjust

With my lightning bolts a-glowin’
I can see where I am going to be
When the reaper, he reaches and touches my hand

With my lightning bolts a-glowin’
I can see where I am going
With my lightning bolts a-glowin’
I can see where I am going

You better look out below!

I highlighted the lyrics "if the children don’t grow up our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up" because they seem very true. It is almost as though the song is saying that life can be tough and growing up somehow tears us up if we are not in someway hardened to it. I think in a way I would prefer to keep my childlike heart in shreds though it be then trade it for an unfeeling cast iron heart of adulthood. Somehow I think pain can be used to our benefit and growth if we allow it. The song sounds cynical but I am probably not interpreting it properly. The music in the song moves from something mournful to something hopeful so maybe that is the direction of the lyrics as well.
 
The title of the song reminds me of a spectacularly enigmatic verse from Ephesians 5:14 which says: "Wake up, sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you." Christ says much about having the attitudes of children and certainly children are far more easily wounded then those of us hardened adults who have built walls around our hearts. I think perhaps this may be part of the theme of turning the other cheek. Christ is not simply admonishing non-violence but also reminding us that in our woundedness comes healing. That allowing ourselves to be wounded can lead to health. That allowing other people’s woundedness to wound us rather than running and hiding from it or walling ourselves off from it is actually what we are called to do. When we are uncomfortable with our own woundedness and pain how much moreso are we uncomfortable with someone elses? We can hardly love our enemies when we are building walls to keep them out.
 
Ephesians first and foremost is about the walls that Christ has destroyed. It is a firm warning against rebuilding those walls. Ephesians describe the wall as "the dividing wall of hostility".
 
As I think about it while pondering these lyrics and these verses it seems to me Christ never erected a single wall in his ministry. He tore them down but never did he raise up any new ones. There is a powerful lesson there I think.

The Critic, the Cynic and the Prophet

 
Everybody hates a critic…this is an age-old quote and it captures how people feel about critics. They may be film critics, book critics, music critics, and especially life critics. I really don’t think everybody hates a critic though…not really…not in the original sense that the word criticism has. The bible of the english language (as far as I am concerned) the Oxford dictionary defines criticism in two ways:
 

criticism

  • noun 1 expression of disapproval; finding fault. 2 the critical assessment of literary or artistic works.

This is very helpful because it captures both senses of the word as I have seen it. The first sense, that of disapproval or finding fault is really what people hate and I think rightly so. The second sense of the word is the more accurate or at least the more appropriate in terms of how criticism should be employed – that of a critical assessment, not only of literary or artistic works – but rather of all things.

A critical assessment is meant as a constructive assessment. It’s very impetus and energy comes from good intentions – the intent to help the author or director or musician or finally friend overcome that which needs to be overcome. By its very nature a critical assessment involves/requires some knowledge of that which is being aassessed. It requires a certain intimacy of the one being critiqued as well as the work. It is not a gut emotional response to the artist/person or work involved.

When a criticism is leveled in the first sense it is almost always based upon intuition, gut feeling, or emotional response. It is an opinion which can be easily manipulated by strong willed people around the critic.  It is leveled quickly and without a lot of detailed thought or knowledge about the object being criticized. This is the form of criticism that people hate because it is an inappropriate criticism that comes out of selfishness rather than selflessness.

Don’t get me wrong one need not be a subject matter expert to offer criticsim in the classical (or correct) sense. For example one need not be a carpenter or woodworker to offer critique of a poorly made chair. However one must be capable of stating what they feel is wrong with said chair. A carpenter is likely to receive criticism such as "the problem with this chair is that it is five inches too short for my frame and only has three legs". The carpenter is disinclined to be charitable to criticism such as "this chair is a piece of crap, take it back and do it again". When asked why be the patient carpenter or "what exactly needs to be done" the unjust critic simply responds – "i hate it, that’s what’s wrong with it…stop asking questions and keep making new chairs until I tell you when you have made the one I like". One could just as well place a blindfolded archer into a room, spin them around and tell them to hit a target.

The poor critic, the one who does not offer helpful insight into the criticism but simply tears down or unhelpfully points out what must not be done wthout offering any helpful direction is simply a cynic. A good critic may be a skeptic (one who asks questions of all things) but never a cynic. The cynic is one who has already pre-judged and there is no critical assessment in them. One should remember that cynicism has never changed the world for the better and it never will.

The critic who offers critical assessment out of a genuine desire to see improvement, wholeness or even to offer informed praise is very much like a prophet. The prophets from a scriptural perspective were those who were (willingly or unwilling) given insight from God into the need for Israel to change. The good prophets (Elijah, Samuel etc) were offering a critical assessment of Israel. Telling them where they were wrong, why they were wrong and what they needed to do (generally turn back to God). The bad prophets (yes there were bad prophets) were usually not given a specific name but usually lumped together as a group and refered to as those prophets who would only offer words that Israel wanted to hear – not necessarily needed to hear. God speaks very poorly of those prophets. Job fits into the category of a poor prophet not because he does not fulfill his obligations to deliver God’s message to Ninevah (he does eventually) but rather because of his attitude in the delivery. Job is a cynic. Job is not happy that Israel must tolerate the presence of Ninevah because God has decided to give them a chance. Job would rather see Ninevah wiped from the face of the earth.

The good prophet, like the good critic, critically assesses the needs of the people of God from a Godly perspective with a keen ear toward His word and away from their own personal gut feelings and desires. They deliver that message into the lives of the people with a heart motivated by good intent even when in their very core they may feel uneasy about what God is asking they have come to recognize His voice and know in the end that it is good.

A Walk Through

 
Well I have never walked through a drive through until tonight.
 
Matt and I were feeling snackish so we went for a walk and of course forgot that we were in Morden and everything closes extra-early (it was just after 11:30 pm)…so we walked a fair ways till we got to McDonald’s which is open till midnight. We had a good 20 minutes to spare. I reach to open the door and – locked. This is annoying. I look in and the cashier is talking to a boy. She and I begin a lip reading and hand gesture conversation through the window:
 
Me – "Are you open?"
She – shakes head no
Me – "It’s only 11:40 pm and your open till midnight"
She – shrugs in a sympathetic way suggesting she can’t do anything about it
Me – "how about the drive through?"
She – Nods and smiles…a clear yes
 
So Matt and I proceed to walk through the McDonald’s drive through, order through the window, pay an take our food over to the tables outside. All in all avery surreal moment. But enjoyable.

Holy, Holy, Holy

 
so you thought you could capture the starlight sun
lifted your joyless hands and stretched skyward
back broke a spinebound effort that made you numb
felled like proud burned Icarus to lonely sargasso seas
 
so you thought you’d dip your hands in graven gold
maybe come out candy coated 24 carat precious
but rose as Midas wailing judge of death and mould
embdedded in Pandemonium’s bloodcut obsidian streets
 
till with sorrowed psalm-like cries of Eli Eli lema sabacthani
sweet Sophia breathes mercy as falling Spring cherry blossoms
pulling worship like water in unending chorus of "I AM FREE!!!"
 
so you thought you could capture the starlight sun
never thought that one day holy broken Son would capture you
so you thought you’d dip your hands in graven gold
never thought that one day heartweaver would make you anew
 
sargasso seas traded for forever crystal
breathing Holy, Holy, Holy
bloodcut obsidian gone for precious metal
is the Lord God almighty