Mother

 
mother looks beyond the glass
toward the million miles away
she seeks young fading child
lost in shadow and end of day
 
mother sings for saving life
that love would fly ‘cross the gap
she sends heart-heavy hopes away
pulls reflection from black old trap
 
mother wants light and laughter
ringing along the sunlit plain
fears cold and the broken gold
cries ‘GOD!’ at baby’s cutting pain
 
mother is fierce and fire
she is iron will for beauty’s grace
this one is her sweet charge
this one’s from within her space
 
mother holds forever
blood ties never sever
mother is forever
forever….

The Crushing Emptiness

 
i have heard that nothing
is without mass
that light is wave and particle both
and souls were weighed once
by their absence and departure
there must be truth here
for of all the weightless weightless ways
the crushing emptiness falls heaviest
 
who would have known
that absence could be so present
that a vacuum could be so full

Shameless Request for Patronage :-)

 
In the old days poets who were not wealthy would often seek the resources of a rich patron to support their poetic work. In return for such patronage the poet would write poems on behalf of the patron for various occassions like birthdays and other celebrations. Many nations continue the tradition of poetic patronage in the form of appointing a poet laureate to perform this function on behalf of the nation. Canada’s current poet laureate is Pierre DesRuisseaux, a Quebec poet.
 
Now on to my shameless request for patronage: as a poet, pastor and self-described armchair theologian I have come to desire a particular series of books…that is the recently retranslated study edition of theologian Karl Barth’s Church Dogmatics. You may view the series in all of its glory here –
 
 
Sadly due to the strenuous amount of work translating theology from German to English and adding copious study notes the cost of the 31-volume softcover series is $738 US (through Amazon.com – http://www.amazon.com/Church-Dogmatics-vols-Karl-Barth/dp/056702279X/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1256750677&sr=1-2 ). Now as financially lucrative as the roles of poet, pastor and armchair theologian are, the combined remuneration of all still falls sadly short of attaining to the goal of purchasing such a series.
 
Should you, dear reader, wish to patronize me (in the good way) by contributing to the purchase of Church Dogmatics all I can provide in return is a commitment to write or speak on your behalf (as well as maintaining a generally cheery disposition for a good while to come). I would be pleased to write poetry for personal occassions or commit to studying and writing and/or speaking about areas of theology that are of interest to you.
 
Thanks for your consideration – for the first time in my life I look forward to being patronized.

Karl Barth

 
I recently finished reading (this morning) the book Karl Barth for Armchair Theologians by John R. Franke and was very impressed. Karl Barth was the pre-eminent protestant theologian of the early 20th century (and potentially the early 21st century). Franke’s book offers an impressive and very thorough introduction to Barth and his theology in a way that one would think impossible across a mere 170 pages.
 
Barth is notable for the complexity of his thought which arises in part from a dilectical approach to theology. Franke very clearly and lucidly navigates the reader through many of the complexities and past some of the simplistic and one-sided interpretations of Barth (Neo-Orthodox versus Post-Modern) to a holistic/comprehensive view.
 
I highly recommend this book for anyone seeking to develop a more nuanced theology, most especially as a primer for those who are considering reading Barth (or have already done so). An excellent read!

Abortion

 
I just read an article that disturbed me and in true Pete Cantelon fashion I thought I would pass on some thoughts and disturb you too.
 
CNN.com has a very informative and interesting article about the state of the Pro-Life versus Abortion cultures in the United States (and by extention elsewhere). The article can be found here: http://www.cnn.com/2009/US/10/27/abortion.war/index.html 
 
I must start out by stating that for various reasons I am unequivocally against abortion under any circumstance. I consider it morally and ethically repugnant. I should also state that I recognize my limited ability to enforce that persepctive as a man (which might sound ironic to some). My perspective is not one born out of simplistic moralistic thinking or breeding (I was against abortion long before I was a Christian). My perspective (and I suspect many other’s) is one made up of a complex interweaving of experience, knowledge, wisdom (I hope) and faith. That being said there are those whose perspectives are simplistic in nature and perhaps stem primarily from emotion or upbringing or a mixture of those and other factors. I believe that those who support abortion are not always simplistic or amoral/immoral in their thinking but rather have arrived at their place after a long and arduous journey through experience and their own version of faith.
 
My position stems out of a deep seated belief that human life begins at conception and I have not the time nor inclination to fully expand on that except to say that it has to do with God and the potentiality of humanity as much as imago dei etc.
 
A few things I am not:
 
– I am not against contraception (which sets me apart from my Catholic brothers and sisters)
 
– I am not a person you will find waving placards or posting pictures of ripped up foetuses as I think it does the opposite of its intended effect – it numbs us to the horror of what abortion is. I also believe this form of lobbying appeals to a very animal attribute within our natures and fails to address the reality that the arena of Pro-life/abortion is rapidly moving from the clinic to the pharmacy. If we believe in life from conception then we must value such life even when it is a single cell seconds old and not simply because it looks like a human being.
 
– I am not a person who advocates any form of violence in response to abortion
 
– I do not hate (or even dislike) those who had had abortions or perform abortions and welcome their friendship
 
A few things I am/believe:
 
– I believe the only truly effective tools in a campaign for life are genuine love, forgiveness, compassion and relationship
 
– I am a father of three children
 
– I am a brother of five sisters and two brothers
 
– I am a son
 
– I believe God loves Dr. Henry Morgenthaler and the mother who has had an abortion exactly the same as he love me and Christ.
 
– I believe that abortion is an industry with little difference from the car industry in its goals – profit first, welfare of people second. Take for example the case of Dr. LeRoy Carhart who runs an abortion clinic in Nebraska. He claims to have performed more than 60,000 abortions (400 beyond 24-weeks which is the estimated point at which the baby can live outside of the womb). Dr. Carhart charges between $430 to $10,000 for an abortion depending upon how late in the term the mother is. At the most conservative estimate Dr. Carhart has earned $25,800,000 dollars over the course of 21 years or $1,228,571 annually. A more realistic estimate would place his earnings at between $30-$40 million with an annual income in accordance.
 
– I am the Chairperson of the Pembina Valley Pregnancy Care Centre; an non-proft organization that offers counselling to anyone impacted by pregnancy. Our website is www.pvpcc.com
 
– I am a pastor
 
– I am a hypocrite. I hold many values that are likely conflicting in nature for various reasons. My hypocrisy however does not change truth and it would be unwise to allow any person’s hypocrisy to change your perception of the truth when they speak it.
I find the above article compelling because it tells the story of two created children of God and think you should read it. You should be informed. Dialogue should occur between all sides and I encourge you to express your own doubts and critique of my position.

Grace

 
i sent a weight
to the deep
to the deep
a little tear of lead
 
i dropped a stone
alone and away
alone and away
cracked rock granite-shed
 
not a sound
not a crash
not an echo
nothing returned to me
 
i have plumbed the depths of grace
and thought to fill the well
 
every day
every hour
every minute
 
i have plumbed the depths of grace
and have found it without end
all that i have let go
has gone that i might mend
 

Out my window

 
out my window
there is grey sky
and the partial view
of a dying tree
 
out my window
I look with misty eye
at asphalt and brick
but it’s not really what I see
 
I see a light through glass
across the way
curtains closed against the day
shut to the ones who pass
 
out my window
there is the world
such as it is
filthy and dark
broken and beautiful
a howling cry
a ragged sigh
like you and I
out my window
 

Horror Movies & Western Culture

 
Well I must confess something.
 
I am a lover of horror movies. I have always been a fan for as long as I remember. Back in the not-so-supervised days of childhood (when I would seek to gt away with as much as possible) I was able to see quite a number of them (sorry mum). Films like The Amityville Horror and The Exorcist were the foundation for the interest.
 
While I was in seminary I wrote a paper for a mission course on the difference between the North American horror move and Japanese Horror movies (J-Horror) and how that difference gives us insight into Japanese culture that can help in evangelistic efforts in Japan. I think more then any other genre of movies horror taps into the base essense of the culture it comes from. If one were to analyze western horror (particularly American) between 1950-2000 one can see many smaller trends and a fairly major theme. One of the primary themes in american horror has been the overcoming or escaping of evil in the end of the film. No matter what the subject matter or sub-genre the protagonists in American horror between 1950-2000 all find a way of overcoming evil. A lot of this has to do with the cultural foundation of Judeo-Christian values of western culture.
 
Evil in the American horror always had some sort of supernatural source and generally speaking, no matter how destructive the evil is it is overcome. The American horror does not like to leave the audience without some sort of closure.
 
It was around 2002 with the introduction The Ring that some of the rules of the game began to change for the American horror movie. The Ring is a remake of a Japanese horror movie called Ringu. While American horror was already well on its way to a less supernatural more slasher approach The Ring was completely supernatural in nature. One of the key defining characteristics of The Ring was the way it ended – SPOILER ALERT – with The Ring and other J-Horror remakes (like The Grudge) and J-Horror in general evil is not defeated. In J-Horror when a person involves themselves with the supernatural that is it – you know how it will end – there is no escape. Evil will hunt you down and you cannot defeat it. The key defining characteristic of the Japanese horror that sets it apart from the American horror (aside from a distinct lack of intense gore and blood) is that there is no hope in it…not a stitch.
 
I believe part of the reason for this is that Japanese culture is distinctly more animistic (spirit oriented) then American culture. In Japanese culture the spirit world in general is to be avoided and if connection needs to occur that connection should be careful reverence. The supernatural world (God(s) included) are neither good nor evil – they are capricious at best and are quick to anger. From a ministry perspective one begins to understand how approaching such a culture with a message of eschatological warfare is distinctly not a good idea.
 
Back to American horror – take a look at the Zombie sub-genre. It has always had a healthy life to it but recently it has become very popular. I saw Zombieland tonight and feel as though it will likely be considered the peak of this current cycle of Zombie films. Historically Zombies have always been the reanimated dead. The source for this was Haitian voodoo mythology. How te dead were reanimated depended upon the current psychosis of western culture. In the 50’s-80’s they were generally reanimated via mysterious outerspace dust or atomic/nuclear radiation. In 2002 a fantastic British movie came out called 28 Days Later which completely reworked the Zombie movie by presenting us with a population that had been transformed by a mysterious virus. Since then virtually every Zombie movie (save Fido which to be fair was a homage to the 50’s zombie films) has followed the same basic premise…zombies are no longer reanimated dead but infected living. The new focus on the infectious virus speaks to our cultures fear of things like H1N1, Bird Flu, AIDS, etc.
 
ASIDE – Video games track fairly closely with movie culture and have been ahead of the curve when it comes to these cultural reflections…especially as regards Japanese influence on American culture. Part of the reason for this is likely that Japan has generally been seen as the video game leader of the world in terms of creativity and development.
 
If one were to apply some of these insights to today’s horror movies that are less and less supernatural and more and more slasher/violent in nature one might come to believe the current psychosis of American culture is a fear of one-another. A fear of humanity. Given the state of things this makes lots of sense.
 
In terms of the future I would not be surprised to see more horror films exploring themes reflective of terrorism, fear of Islam etc. I also expect the western horror film to become less and less hopeful with the collapse of Judea-Christian values. The series of horror moves called Final Destination (which launched in 200)) bear this out I think.
 
Anyhow – those are some thoughts on horror movies. Much more could be said about sub-genres like vampires but I am too tired to go into it all right now.

Froggies: A Poem Written Upon Hearing of the Mowing of Frog Laden Yard

five little froggies
and the blade blade blade
run little froggies
to the shade shade shade
four little froggies
needing aid aid aid
mourn little froggies
in the glade glade glade
three little froggies
should have stayed stayed stayed
in the grass little froggies
to braid braid braid
two little froggies
in shelter made made made
of sticks little froggies
where they prayed prayed prayed
one little froggie
wants to fade fade fade
to the shadows little froggie
where once you laid laid  laid
no little froggies
in grass that swayed swayed swayed
just a group of little ghosties
to pond to wade wade wade
forever little froggie
wade wade wade

Jack

 
Jack saw blue sky
as window on black night
Jack saw silver moon
shine ‘midst the shivering daylight
while underground
where the bones lay waiting
Jack saw life and love and loss
world’s gray-hate abating
 
would that I could
walk as nimble Jack
with cross upon the thin places
 
no riding nightmare’s saddle
through mind’s moor
grave brow above grave faces
 
just Jack and light
just Jack and sight
just Jack and God
just Jack and I
                   without facade